that was exactly how it felt like when i stepped into the little apartment once again. like i just walked out of reality.
i could almost believe i just walked into the japanese film i just watched on the plane.
it felt so much like the first time i reached melbourne.
so quiet.
so empty.
so alone.
gone was the mrt tearing along the tracks.
gone were the cars zipping along the roads.
gone was 90.5 blaring on the radio.
gone was the tv with all its amusement.
until i called home (:
i had 3 days to finish my $130 credit left on my phone because it restarts on the 7th. i couldn't finish using it. darn!
the next morning i ate cereal and i thought the milk tasted weird and wondered if it went bad and thought the cereal tasted weird and wondered if it went bad too. i thought of the breakfast that pa buys every morning at home. so expected. so sure. now i have to take care of it myself.
spent the morning doing laundry and tidying etc. household chores never felt so mundane. but to think of it, i have nothing much else to do. or rather, tonnes of nothing much to do.
then i went to church. and i'm so thankful for the family away from family.
and for the means of grace, the token that is the same, reminding me of the God that never changes.
then i had to buy groceries. i was so stressed wondering what i should buy. went safeway. went aldi. bought vitamins. browsed through whatever cookbook/recipes i have (not much use). wanted to go vic mark but went safeway again instead. in the end i spent over $100 on food over 3 days! horrors! but hey, it was a lot of stock up food and a lot of fruits and expensive fruits! so i wasn't wasting money on snacks or whatnots.
anyway i realised i need inspiration to cook. ah it is so hard. people count calories. i count colour and nutrition and variety. sometimes i just lose count.
went shopping yesterday and got a $10 top, $10 bottom, $5 top, $7 top. but i find the sales now not as good as the end of financial year ones. shall wait till mid-year. i haven't finished digging supre anyway. it is like a whole floor of $5 - $15 racks but you need time to find something decent.
today is another day of settling all the nothing muchness. hope to get my butt out for a run later. i miss my green-tea-walled room. this green tea room scent i got is smelling weird.